holy shit i love my bitch
even heart in every sitch
and when i’m a stupid bitch
she gives me a belly itch

holy fuck, holy shit
that was lunch when i was six
that’s why i felt fucking sick
cuz they poisoned every sip

john wasn’t innocent
he smashed his car when i was ten
alex didn’t fit
so he’s gonna drown again
try to take it out real quick
but only smashed a couple bricks
and when i can’t close my fist
that’s when i receive a kiss

first they stabbed my elliot smith
tell me he was sad and sick
raised on the tap and bit by a tick
now i’m a dud, now i’m a bitch
and then they tried to cast a string
from a spire to my wing
but the warmth and wealth she brings
i scorn to change my state with king

the warmth of life
spilled in the gloom
in your best state
you stare at the moon

my only friend
my only friend
if she would come
this ache would shed

i could write
another chord
but i need
something more
pick it up
fingers cold
it's a piece
that i broke

my only friend
my only friend
if she would come
this ache would shed

fooled me once it was enough
i was stupid, slow
and i got fooled fucking bad
can't go back to what i know
holy harp, play it sad
never get back what i had

building out the cottage was a no go
so i spent another life
tried to practice what i wrote
i broke out, i got low
i flipped out and i smashed my phone

jeremy quit his job and he took the squad
and they cast their cards and keys to god
and they built a church, and they carved a panel out
it said fool me again, well then we shoot
shoot, shoot, i'm gonna shoot
we're gonna shoot, shoot, shoot
if you try that shit again
well then we fucking shoot
holy harp, play it sad
never get back what i had

our day is over
and now we’re in a shadow
a gilded frame
a wire holding too much weight

she climbed up on her roof
cuz she had to see the moon
she slipped and fell
all that landed was an old world shell

you made the club feel like my room
you made my camry feel cool
lash the whip and left a scar
do i make you proud i try so hard

her day is over
and now she’s in a shadow
she wasn't done
but she gave enough

holy shit it’s my life
and i don’t fuckin care
all my friends and my goals
i don’t fuckin care
all i want is tonight
and you're there
and a stick and poke
and a john maus snare

i’ve climbed an ancient tree
i framed a roman key
i played saint thomas church
not as a nice as ur john maus shirt

all this shit in my life
why the fuck is it there
when you're gone
it’s still nice
cuz i use
all the warmth
from ur voice
and the light
from ur eyes
and ur skirt
and ur thighs
and i write
something nice

i wasn't even singing yet
i wasn't even hanging yet
it wasn't a lie
but i still made u cry

i wasn't even tatted yet
i wasn't really at it yet
but u said u might
wanna spend another night

she said i'm dumb and weak
and that's when i get mean
but i know she’d never wanna be
with anyone but me

now my hands are lookin my dads
and ur hand knows its my hand
don't wanna try
but ur boutta fuckin make me smile

time is gone tonight
its only space
as aidan speaks to me
its only noise
but in my heart
a tiny chord
the best i had
keeps me warm

when i am standing in
an empty room
my hair on the ground
my music bloomed
and nothings left
for me to lose
i'll still have
the best of you

looking through the crack in the mirror
i know you hate it here
cry when i cut your hair
cry cuz i just stare

if i can't use my hands
i might not understand
i won't let em take you again
yeah i'm gonna keep my sam

now the hold is gone
but i hold you like a bee inside my palm
hold the light like a father does
and i'll fly inside the club like a dove

too hard a stone
it cracked and it broke
and i only had it
for a couple seconds
and if the dose
is trapped in us both
then at least we have it
for another second

goodbye freya, you had heart
the tears are gonna start
you hit me on the day we met
but i woke up with you on my chest

you ignored everything i said
but you'd wait for me to go to bed
and i'll keep taking the road as far as i can go
but i'll be shy without you

goodbye, god bless
i'm letting go of my best friend

goodbye, god bless
i'm letting go of my best friend

i took her for myself
and then i left her on the shelf
i did not want to leave her hurt
but what i did was so much worse

i only know from what i do
so i'm sorry that i learned on you
and if the city starts to break
you will have my help

i only know from what i do
so i'm sorry that i learned on you
and if the city starts to break
you'll always have my help

stupid skinny boy
thinks he's holy boy
stung him with the venom
split his fucking head in

can't get milk and honey
workin', burnin', lonely
he can barely read
he can hardly breath

thanking myself
holding myself
raising myself
going by myself

does it backwards
holds it backwards
so far backwards
going backwards

line up
sign up
fold it up
chew it up
give it up
thats enough
lock it up
deep
too proud
ice cold
too ice cold
and i fold
and i fold
its too much
its too much
lost my touch
sit up straight
you're not done
you're late
you're dumb
hold it in
life is good
seventeen
and i fold
seventeen
and then i fold

sharp, the teeth
this wasn't meant for me
and i fold, i give
i tremble at the pages left for me
i gave you everything
so i waste, i wait
in the body of what i was supposed to be

in my chest
been struck
on the floors
my guts

from the yard
to my bed
theres a trail
that i've bled

somehow feel bliss
there's a cloud of mist
shining within
its a pink diamond

last night
you were there
and you washed
my hair

but your eyes
cloudy
and you did
not speak

somehow feel bliss
there's a cloud of mist
shining within
its a pink diamond

thought it was done
then i found your skates in my trunk
driving from LA back home
the stars never felt so low

lying, tangled in the roots
jerm what did you do?
around a garnet ring
an iron strangler fig

every thought is a version
of the day where i broke your skin
i almost forgot
then i found the bracelet i ripped off

i see a blank phone screen
i see a wedding ring
see you talk to him like me
and then i recline my seat

lying, tangled in the roots
jerm what did you do?
but from my chest there grew
a golden dragon fruit

yeah i didn't finish
but i wanna do it again
i want you to believe
that i'm a guy who holds a beer can
i wanna build a table
and i wanna fill the trash can
i'm finished with my life
and i don't wanna do it again
i'm tryna be the coolest
i write lyrics like a tattoo
i tried to take it seriously
but i don't know if i meant it
on my hands i sit
because i didn't mean it
yeah i know i fucking said it
but i didn't mean it like that

i was almost from encanto
imma make a new invention
i'm a maker from la mesa
i'm gonna make it cuz i actually say stuff
i'm a maker so i'm going to make it
i'm gonna make it cuz i love music
i'm gonna make it cuz i already made it

yeah my name is jeremy field and i'm from lemon avenue
yeah my name is jeremy field and now i live in east hollywood
yeah my name is jeremy and music is my favorite thing
my favorite fruit is a cherimoya grown in san diego
sometimes my music is funny but its not a joke
yeah my name is jeremy field and i have $3,000

yeah i didn't finish
but i wanna do it again
i want you to believe
that i'm a guy who holds a beer can
i wanna build a table
and i wanna fill the trash can
i'm finished with my life
and i don't wanna do it again
i'm tryna be the coolest
i write lyrics like a tattoo
i tried to take it seriously
but i don't know if i meant it
on my hands i sit
because i didn't mean it
yeah i know i fucking said it
but i didn't mean it like that

powder, that is all that i earn
i sift for pieces left
wind blows through the hole in my sail
i sweep slower every day

but in my home
the lady always knows
as i lose my hold
she's handing down the rope

as i lose my grip
she helps me pick my fit
as i lose my cool
she's standing with my tools